I’m getting really sick of my feelings being invalidated. Stop telling me not to get angry or annoyed. Don’t tell me I’m overreacting and to stop crying. If it’s how I feel, let me feel for fuck’s sake! I don’t tell you how you should express your emotions and I sure as hell don’t tell you not to get angry or cry.
All of my life I’ve been told these things and it’s really fucked me up inside. One of the supposed causes of BPD is emotional invalidation and I’m pretty sure it’s one of the causes of my problems. I don’t normally get angry to the point of crying but when I’m told how to feel or not feel, I do.
My mother has always been one to throw things around, curse and yell at inanimate objects, etc. I have avoided that as much as possible because I don’t want to be like that. I cry instead. I cry when I’m frustrated and I cry when I’m sad. I actually spend a lot of time crying.
I’m sick of this shit.