Feeling guilty for feeling emotions. It’s about one of the worst things ever.
This morning I purposely kept myself in my room for fear of saying mean and hurtful things to C. I was agitated and angry with him for silly, insignificant things and I felt like throwing a hissy fit. I felt like a child. I wanted to throw things and stomp my feet like a four year old. I started crying because I felt so overwhelmed with everything. Have any of you felt this before?
Mood swings can be so absolutely overwhelming and can span the spectrum in a matter of seconds when you have BPD. Cycling between angry to depressed to agitated to sad to suicidal in a matter of minutes is one of the most uncomfortable feeling ever. It feels like you wanna crawl out of your skin. You want to punch a hole in the wall and then crawl into bed under the covers forever.