So, I keep being completely invalidated, as a woman and as a person by people who I thought we potential new friends/acquaintances and it’s really taking a toll. I am trying to make friends and have a social life outside of my one (Chris), but it’s really proving to be hard. I keep thinking it’s me that’s the problem, because they’re all ultimately saying the same thing in the end: don’t take things so personally or don’t be so emotional/sensitive.
When I try to vent or look for validation from others, I don’t feel like I’m getting it. Maybe I am being too touchy? Then I tell myself that that is who I am and I shouldn’t have to change myself for others. I’m so confused. I want to be likeable but I don’t want to stray too far away from who I am. I feel like such a recluse at times because I just end up keeping everything bottled up instead of sharing so I don’t set anyone off. I’m sick of being ganged up on. My beliefs, my personality, emotionality; it all seems to be too much once people spend more time with me.