Girl

From in the shadow
She calls
And in the shadow
She finds a way
And in the shadow
She crawls
Clutching her faded photograph
My image under her thumb
Yes with a message for my heart
She’s been everybody else’s girl
Maybe one day she’ll be her own
Everybody else’s girl
Maybe one day she’ll be her own

And in the doorway
They stay and laugh
As violins fill with water
Screams from the bluebells
Can’t make them go away
We’ll I’m not seventeen
But I’ve cuts on my knees
Falling down
As the winter takes one more cherry tree
Rushin’ rivers thread so thin limitation
Dreams with the flying pigs turbid blue
And the drugstores too safe
In their coats
Anda in their do’s
Yeah smother in our hearts
A pillow to my dots
One day maybe
One day
One day she’ll be her own

And in the mist
There she rides
And castles are burning in my heart
And as I twist I hold tight
And I ride to work every morning
Wondering why
“Sit in the chair and be good now” And become all that they told you
The white coats enter her room
And I’m callin’ my baby
Callin’ my baby
Callin’ my baby
Callin’ everybody else’s girl
Maybe one day she’ll be her own

Tori Amos – Girl

Mad world.

This song gives me goosebumps and makes me stop whatever I’m doing every time. It’s so hauntingly true and pure. This will always be one of my favorite songs.

Gary Jules – Mad World

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It’s a very, very
Mad World
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It’s a very, very
Mad World
Mad World
Enlarging your world
Mad World.

Blue Skies by Noah and the Whale

This is a song for anyone
With a broken heart
This is a song for anyone
Who can’t get out of bed

I’ll do anything
To be happy
Oh cause blue skies are calling
But I know that it’s hard

This is the last song
That I write
While still in love with you

This is the last song
That I write
While you’re even on my mind

Cause it’s time to leave
Those feelings behind
Oh cause blue skies are calling
But I know that it’s hard

I don’t think that it’s the end
But I know we can’t keep going
I don’t think that it’s the end
But I know we can’t keep going

But blue skies are calling
Oh yeah blue skies are calling
Oh blue skies are calling
But I know that it’s hard

Noah and the Whale – Blue Skies

She’s saved my life and doesn’t even know it.

I was never a big fan of Tori Amos in middle school or high school. I remember many girls my age being really obsessed with her and I didn’t get it. I get it now.

One of the best purchases I’ve ever made was the “Welcome to Sunny FL” DVD. I can’t recall how many times I had it on loop but let’s just say, it didn’t leave the DVD player for several months. I’m sure I annoyed the hell out of everyone in the house.

If I ever got the glorious moment to meet Tori Amos (and I didn’t pass out, faint, freeze up, etc.) I would like to share with her how much her music has meant to me. She’s far surpassed the “music I like to listen to” area straight into “musical obsession and addiction”. Unluckily, I’ve never seen her live but I am keeping hope alive.

Many of us like to rely on music and other forms of art to help us escape the troubles and pains in life. I have always been able to put on my headphones and lie in the dark as opposed to meditating. I don’t have the ability to drown out sounds around me in order to focus so music is my substitute.

When I was going through a horrible depressive time, about 3 years ago, and I was utterly hopeless, I listened to Tori, Bjork, Sigur Ros, and other calming bands to help me cope. After finding out what Tori has been through in her life, I feel an invisible sort of connection with her. She speaks to all of us that have dealt with horrible feelings and emotions because she too has dealt with her own.

What music gets you through your darkest times? If it’s not music, what other coping skills have you learned?

Tori Amos – Real Men

Leather from the Welcome to Sunny FL DVD

this song is amazing…

Cursed with a love that you can’t express
It’s not for a fuck, or a kiss
Rather give the world away than wake up lonely
Everywhere and every way I see you with me

Crowd surf off a cliff
Land out on the ice
Crowd surf off to sea
float towards the beach

If you find me, hide me, I don’t know where I’ve been

Are we breathing? Are we wasting our breath?
It won’t be enough to be rich
All the babies tucked away in their beds
We’re out here screaming
The life that you thought through is gone
Can’t want out, the ending outlasting the mood
I wake up lonely

If you find me, hide me, I don’t know where I’ve been
When you phone me tell me everything I did
If I’m sorry you lost me you’d better make it quick
Cause this call costs a fortune and it’s late where you live

Rather give the world away than wake up lonely
Everywhere and every way I see you with me
All the babies tucked away in their beds
We’re out here screaming
The life that you thought through is gone
Can’t want out, the ending outlasting the mood
I wake up lonely

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Crowd Surf Off A Cliff by Emily Haines and the Soft Skeleton

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